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Yesterday sent my maid to the airport. No more maids to help with the house work. Suddenly knowing the fact, made me weep and cry. Or was it something else? I don't know it's because I miss my maid, or the fact that I have to start doing housework. Or a wave of pasts unhappy things just overwhelmed me suddenly. Like a sense of panic during school days exam period, or first day go army, break off with GF, seeing GF kissing another man, death of a lose family member....... Of course the 9/11 events on the TV also brought back many past memories of relationships and unhappy work experiences, and other matters. So I cried the whole night...more like weeping with tears. I have aa happy family, nice stable work, good health, and relationship with friends and colleagues are good. So there is no recent events that can evoke such sadness in me, that I can think of. I just don't known why suddenly I am so emotional, red wailing eyes, nose blocked, etc. I don't dabble in shares lately, so cannot be the uncertainty of losing $$$ on shares. I don't love my maid, that is why I sent her back. So no emotional baggage. Do I need to spend money to see a psycharitic? Or just have a good lunch today? The sense of lost, helpless, useless, sadness in me is still strong as I write this. I don't have urge to go kill myself or do foolish things. Perhaps I just need a listening ears....or a good holiday. Not sure why I felt this way since yesterday morning. I have no idea when it will go away. Are such feelings common to anyone of you? Am I sick or really need a councellor or mental doctor.